Water, Rising

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I've gotten melancholic over these past days, and i think i've inherited it from my past self. Which is weird, as i thought i had already forgiven myself for a lot of things. And it's nothing short of depressing. It's not even funny anymore. Remember when the tv stations labeled us Filipinos as "warm and smiling" people? Well, here's my two cents concerning that: DIE. We aren't bulletproof. We stumble and fumble and die and fuck up. And sometimes, we can't even stand the fug up.

Last night, i purposely left university at a little around 6 to catch the rush hour. Why? Well because traffic is strangely therapeutic, i swear. If you have breached the barrier of sanity, that is.

So anyway, I was expecting the traffic to be horrendously clogged and all that shit, what with all the flood around. But i was wrong; it was perfectly smooth sailing, with traffic only surfacing at around NAIA road. Damn. Thanks to that, i got home a little earlier than expected. askdjsakld.

So while i was freezing in the backseat, i whipped out my cellphone and looked at the drafts of the shit i have saved.

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While i was spending time trying to tune out the world, the girls behind me were talking about how hot Girl A is, or how firm Boy B's buttocks were. Neyo was mentioned; if he was to sing in front of her, she would immediately strip. "Hubaran na to!"

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Filipinos have this secret form of communication - we wiggle our eyebrows. It's how we greet people. The trouble is when it's all we do; we wiggle without even ever opening our mouths.

There's a lot more, but i won't go into that. Suffice to say there are times when one needs to shut up in order to believe.

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My friends tell me im going insane. Maybe i am. Maybe im not. Rb calls it ironic - a psychologist going insane. Turns out we can't help ourselves after all. Or then again, i should rephrase. Turns out, i can't help myself after all

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I feel like ive been fooling around for too long. But whenever i try to make a 180 degree turn, i'm faced with a brick wall i can't pass. Maybe there really are sins which are too indelible to wash away, after all.

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Damn it. Just this last night i was reading all of my past posts, and almost 50% of them were about the shit i've been facing. Damn it, i need a new life. Maybe if i ask real hard enough, He'll give me a new one.

I sure hope so.

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