Thursday, March 31, 2011

Struggle

Mood: irritated
Now Playing: donora, shh


"4.Wash away your “negative rantings” about this task we are requiring you because this is what it takes to reach a LEVEL 4 Accreditation. We are ALL in the same boat but we choose to be team players for the success of the College of Science."

lol sori pero wtf. wtf talaga.

This is part of a memo hovering around the college, since it's on it's way to achieve a level 4 accreditation. Apparently, the students are required to make reflection papers that would highlight a "significant learning experience" in the subject, and the quote above is one of the guidelines on how to it.

EXCUSE ME, COLLEGE OF SCIENCE. WHAT ARE YOU DOING. WHAT THE FFFFF.

I have never been so disgusted with my college. The past blunders (like staging and requiring all students for a giant human rosary for a fucking guiness record (wtf was that?!) and allowing that shitty design of a quadri science shirt to even exist) are almost acceptable. Those were allowable blunders with the excuse that there are oversights and lapses of judgement on well, reasoning.

But to require the students to, in effect, lie about their learning experiences is almost unforgiveable. To repeat, i have never felt so disgusted about being a science thomasian until now.

Alam mo yung feeling na naglalakad ka sa sobrang lumang stairs sa tuwina'y papasok ka sa klase? Tapos mapapaisip ka pa kung ilang paa na rin ang nagdaan sa daang nilakakad mo? Tapos biglang ganito? Nakakainit ng buchi, sir.

And to think that i know a lot of things, things that would probably make wives and fathers think twice about enrolling this child in this school. The walls have eyes and ears, y'know. This is not a threat, but a statement on how much crap i've been taking, on how much crap i've been understanding.

This has been a post. This has been me making a stand of my own. We cannot exist without making a struggle, and it is in these struggles that we squirm for freedom.

Thursday, March 3, 2011

Secrets

Mood: melancholic
Now Playing: the world spins madly on


If there is one song that i owe so much to, i think it would come to a close tie between rough draft by yellowcard, leaving song/out of my league by stephen speaks or the world spins madly on by the weepies. There's a whole lot more, but for this night, i am in the weepies mode. Holy crap this is starting to look like one of those posts again, isn't it? Maybe its because i haven't heard this song in such a long while that when i heard this morning, it was like a moment of total "shit, what the fuck are you doing, ding?!"

The human body is amazing. How is that we can hold so many emotions at once, without even bursting from all of it?

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Sometimes my inner subconscious conspires with the universe. Just this morning, i was walking at Lawton, looking for a jeep to ride. Suddenly this voice calls me from behind, and i turn around and see one of my friends laughing at me. I have no idea why.

So then she launched into how we should all get together after the tests. You know, like a getaway. I think she realized a lot of things during the course of the weekend, but she won't effing tells us a shit. Nonetheless, i think it's safe to say that whatever she has to tell us, would lead to something... something klasjdaskljd.

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This has got to be the most stressful week ever. I can't believe i'm measuring a room. MEASURING. Lol, like what the fuck am i doing, yo.

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