Mood: meh
Now Playing: Be the Song, Foy Vance,
HOURLIES:
12:00 AM:
Interviewing this motherfucker for a job reference. She was just the kind of person that would not stop talking, even though i kept on prompting questions. Sigh.
12:20 AM~ish:
Screamed internally. I kind of lost myself for a while. Pondered what to eat for lunch, craved some pastries. But nope, no pastry shop open this early or this late.
5:00 AM:
still did not meet company productivity goals. Hung around after work to say goodbye to Lester, who's moving out to the offered UK shift. Could not believe he's leaving. Thought about my situation. Made plans after work, crossed out initial plans to go home early and sleep.
5:30 AM:
Went out to breakfast at Chowking, talked with Rea a bit about leaving while at the ATM station. Fell asleep after eating and dreamed about some people, some warmth of a hand, some whisper of a smile. Woke up, made plans to go to Baguio for the 6th.
8:00 AM:
The others were planning on going to The Purple Oven to get Rea's mom a loaf of bread. Said goodbye there, and headed on to walk for some time.
8:30 AM
Ended up at Mom and Tina's, bought some overpriced cheese and bacon pandesals (22 pesos for no larger than a meatball) because what the heck. Place is really fucking cute. My kids will eat here someday.
8:45 AM
Got lost and took a wrong turn somewhere - ended up trudging to Glorietta instead of the Triangle. Was already too far gone in my thoughts when i realized this, so i just walked up to Glorietta instead. Asked Das to come and pick me up, hehe.
9:00~ish AM
Had a panic attack.
9:05 AM
Recovered.
9:30 AM
On a bus going home, slept most of the way. Took a call from Das saying yes, she'll pick me up because she's a good Ate. Decided to spend the time at a 7-11. Decided to get a chili dog, ended up dropping the first one i grabbed, squirting chili into my shirt and falling asleep for a solid minute. What is sabaw. Went to goldilocks to get fresh lumpia for nanay because she has done so much for us and napped a bit.
10:00 AM
Ate Das acquired! Talked about driving and career shit. Felt glad to have an ate like her.
10:30~ish AM
Home! Turns out she bought some pastries too, from the purple oven. Mothership bought milk with oats Happy Saturday indeed.
11:00 AM
Slept.
8:00 PM
Woke up and got dressed to go to Arvin's, with the three cans of corned tuna he requested.
9:00 PM
Arrived. Was pleasantly surprised to know that Gabro and Ernest will be joining us - two people who don't really know each other but two cool people just the same. Ona is so fucking ripped it makes me want to go for a run everyfuckingday, and AJ is still AJ. Bonty will also be making an appearance, and Drazen/"Ace" is on his way, so what the heck. Surprising. but definitely and incredibly awesome news.
10:00 to 12:00 PM
Big shit pizza arrived - started to pick at the edges, hehe. Liquor was served, started to feel tipsy, but fuck you because i can drink more so pass me that cup. Decimated the first "mixed" tub of drink in an hour, (RPG, i think) started on the rum the next.
Some context: Ernest is this guy Arvin and I went to grade school together. He's an ncredibly talented person - a school favorite for general info contests and for heaps of other awards. I changed schools in high school, he stayed. Now a UP-LB graduate, he spends his weekends going to clubs, drinking, and having a good time.On the weekdays, he works for a building near the world trade center, organizing events and shit.
Gabro is this guy we met in highschool. His full name is Jason Gabronino, but most people just call him Gab, or Gabro. Has a degree in IT, but currently, as he so flavorfully puts it, spends his time "gym-bahay." He also only started drinking a few weeks ago, so. Hehe.
ANYWAY. GREAT SESSION MOTHERFUCKERS. Spiked drinks with chili sauce and garlic mayo shit. Someone vomited, someone peed, someone fell to the ground and someone got really drunk and flashed everyone.
1:00 to 2:00 AM
Party had to break up - hatid hatid mode. I'm guessing this is why i always favor to go last, so i could take the time to say goodbyes.
3:00 AM
Back at Arvin's. Tried to drink the lychee flavored shit, but nope. Too disgusting. Retreated to the house. Everybody except Bonty and Ona were all floored and snoring within minutes. I was awake.
3:00 AM
Talked with them for a long time.
"...overwhelming, humbling, and amazing." - my brain at 3:00 AM
7:00 AM
Roused everyone to clean up. Got some coffee to sober up - discussed what happened last night and who did what.
7:10 AM
Watched the morning mass with Arvin's family.
8:00 AM
Started walking and biking home.
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It just feels like i'm too far gone sometimes. Too far gone to quit, but too far gone to keep on going. It is incredibly tiring having to think all the time. I really suck at making decisions, and more often than not i find myself thinking what could have happened if i did it the other way around, yknow? I'm just that kind of person - i am a wreck of a train crash, wrapped in thoughts and feelings, encased with some nuts, dipped in wtheck. I sound delicious, but let me ruin the fantasy - i don't.
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it has been a humbling experience,
listening to the sound of water
hitting the glass windows
with such force
such abandon
such tenacity
while i sit
trapped in this cold metal bus
as i wait to arrive at my destination
