Winging This Week

Mood: kerazyzileh
Now Playing: well, this particular comp shop is spamming rico blanco tunes over the airwaves, so i guess that's that.

I'm freaking winging this week. I have a ton of stuff to do, and in all honesty, i'm not sure if i can actually finish all of those shit, (and here i am, blogging. alkasdj) but the thing is, i'm feeling more than lazy. It's hard to explain if you haven't tried out a skateboard yet. I'm not the biggest boarder out there, heck i haven't mastered tricks yet. But i guess what im after is the thrill, the danger that you'd fall and rip open your jeans and skin. Y'know, the feeling when you push off the ground and your other foot is on the board and there's this sudden imbalance or shit? That kind of thrill.

It's like the inverse of nirvana. In nirvana, you more or less realize your meaning. You know what you're gonna do, you know what you're out to find and all of those classy cute stuff.

In vananir (lol, i know it's not a real word, just the inverse of nirvana but bear with me), you don't. You don't know if you're gonna fall, you don't know if you're gonna fly. You just do it, and live in that moment. And whether you do fall or you do fly, what's important is that you did.

I dunno, it's fucking confusing to me, too. But going back, i guess this is what im doing this week. I'll be fucking winging it so hard, i will fucking fly.

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What the hell is up with brownies and cookies? WHY ARE YOU SO FUCKING YUMMY. And while we're at it, what is the fucking big deal, cream-filled cupcakes? WHY DO YOU HAVE SO MUCH DELICIOUS INSIDE OF YOU. And speaking of, why are langka tarts so FUCKING DELISHUUUUUUS *brainmelts*

If you guys were people, i swear, we would be freaking friends for life.