OHAI!

Mood: meh. Now Playing:i remember you, the ataris

watched new moon yesterday. it was.. pretty bad. *runsforcover* no, srsly. probably the only redeeming thing about it is the cool soundtrack they kept on playing. and oh, some of the shots were amazing, as were the fight scenes between wolves and vampires.

but the thing is, you don't go to a movie, order a ticket for a chick flick and watch it for the camera shots, the fight scenes or the soundtrack. w-well, at least i don't. personally, i'd rather focus on the lines and the way the actors feel with each other. sad to say, but the lines delivered were pretty cliche. "you are my everything". "i can't live without you". "please stay. im begging you"

any self-respecting teenage kid could've sued the movie for plagiarizing his life. okay, i kid. haha. i don't know if it worked with other people, (if it did, then you are of higher caliber than i, dear reader ) but as for me.. well.

best part: spoiler! the one wherein jacob leans over the windows of alice's car and delivers these lines to a weirdo bella:

Jacob Black: Please stay here. For Charlie. For me.
Bella Swan: I have to go.
Jacob Black: I'm begging you. Please.
Bella Swan: Goodbye, Jacob.

this was pretty fucking awesome, and had the potential to hit home in all of the right places. cooly.

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I've talked with Rb about some things. and.. i guess i've found a way. or more likely, i've found a concept i can actually hold on to. now the only thing left is to stick with it and try to at least be sane enough to live it through the end. there are no "buts". there are no "ors" there's only me, and a whole lot of other shit that i guess could either make or break a man. and it's frightening, sure. but i believe the rewards are well worth it (which i of course wont go into details here) im remindd of Dr. Kelsos's line in one episode of scrubs. in a sort of sudden burst of insight, he tells an obese patient and Dr Turk, both with fear and insecurity problems, that anything that's not difficult isn't worth fighting for. i dunno. it just gets to me like bam! and boom! y'know.

... or something like that.

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on the other side of things, everything is pretty peaceful. i don't know wth happened this night, but i feel sort of ready. and it's a good thing, isn't it? i hope you're feeling good too. *smiles*

i feel like mary freaking poppins. by the way, this picture below is pretty awesome. kekekeke~