Honey, Ain't That Nice

Mood: hanging
Currently listening to: breathe, anberlin

i don't know what im feeling. rofl. it's depression, and anxiety, and happiness, and boredom. i think this is what people say as falling into a rut. i can't move forward, and i can't move backwards either. well. it's not like i wanted to, anyway.

i have a ton of work piled up.

stop.

the above statement shows how much i have matured, ne? i now regard stuff as work. it's funny. there's a term for this. jaded i think. but then again, no. that's concerned with waiting.

in a sense, yeah. i guess i AM waiting. but i know it's just another one of those loong waits that never seem to end. just another wait. nothing special, i guess.

im also bored. i know, i should not be. it's just that the days seems so monotonous. time... is like useless lumps of water. no, not water. more like ketchup. it's in big dollops that fall splat splat all over the pavement.

is this really what it's like growing up? im not sure. i haven't felt this before.

or maybe i have.

im downloading a dashboard confessional album. i know, i know. it won't help me get over this... whatever this is. but anything is better than remaining stagnant.

and hey, look. i accidentally pressed a key on the keyboard, and a window popped up. it says Help and Support Center.

now if it only it included a topic with feelings and emotions.

which reminds me. i have to study for general psychology. ain't that nice.

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i know i don't sound like im making sense.

that makes two of us. ye. apir.

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hey, i this post is veee-ry.. imagery. great. just when im not in the mood to write, there it goes.