Thoughts Incoherent

Mood: okay
Now Playing: straylight run, existentialism on prom night

A lot of things happened today, which is ironic in itself since we only had about an hour of actual lecture. Then again, maybe i must rephrase; when i say a lot of things happened today, i'm referring to the thoughts inside this convoluted head of mine - thoughts which i guess even i am not aware of until recently.

I guess today, one of the most pressing issues in the backburner came to life again - how quickly the world changes for each and every one of us. One moment, you could be living in a dream amongst the clouds, with the flowers and shit. The next, you could be walking along the lines of i dunno, deep shit.

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Somebody told me I've been an asshole lately, i guess. But let me offer this defense; it is always not without proper reason, not without proper meaning. There's always a meaning. Sometimes you tell it to your pillow, or your closet or maybe you just choose to just tell it to the tiny little voice inside your head that you know would always be there. Because let's face it; you can't tell other people everything, can you? There's always this line that separates what you could say and what you couldn't say.

And to the things that you just couldn't say, you have to take it by yourself. This is not an act of chivalry or stoicism or anything even remotely chauvinistically related. This is simply how things must be done. There are just some things that one has to confront by himself, without asking for the help of others. Yeah, the world sucks that way, but you have to suck it up yourself.

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I think i want to make a movie. Just the homemade kind, but a movie nonetheless.

I think i should write more.