Taning

Mood: pissed off.
Currently listening to: mata, mojofly.

ipagdadasal ko na sana bumaba ka na sa langit at matututong humalik muli sa lupa, ang dumi na iyong pinagmulan. ipagdadasal ko na sana bumukas na ang yong mata at durugin ng silaw ng araw ang iyong utak at kalooban. ipagdadasal ko na sana sa araw araw nating pagkikita, ikaw ay matutong magpahalaga sa tao.

mamatay na ang tamaan.

ako'y hindi natutuwa.

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so the post above was like an hour ago. :) i'm feeling a lot better now. it's now 3:08 am, and in a few hours, i will be there again, swimming in a world unknown.

yesterday was like the holy shit of all holy shits. i so hate wednesday. i have a lot of stuff to carry since it's pe. and since it's pe, it is yet another chance for other people to express how omgaah they are at sports. i think there's a term for that. cerebral masturbation, i think. or ego masturbation. whatever.

basically, it's showing off your brain(when in fact you don't have any) just for simple self-gratifying purposes. it's like peeling the wrapper off a chocolate bar to deliberately invoke feelings of jealousy to others, or to satisfy your ego.

so anyway, it was pe, and i was attempting to grab the ball in mid-air. i landed on the wrong foot and boom. i think i wrecked a nerve. erm. a lot of nerves. it hurts like hell. i was wincing the whole game time, and due to that, our team lost by a point. crap.

now i feel like i owe something. great. just great. another reason to dread and hate wednesdays.

yeah, i know, i know. it gets worse the more you think about it. but what the heck man. asking me to stop thinking about it is like asking if pigs sweat.(they don't, by the way)

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i guess popularity is still damn important to people nowadays. i dunno. it's just that everyday, i see people on talk shows and game shows and talent searches and all of them seem to revolve, in one way or another, popularity. and i can't help but ask the question why?

even at the university. i mean, yeah sure; popularity is important. i get that. but when you think about it, what do you really need it for? is it some kind of twisted goal you're hell bent on achieving? is it a way to get by? why do people step on other people to satisfy themselves?

i'm hoping i learn more about this in class.

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